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What’s the cost of a blind choice

Prompt by Joseph Lieungh: “At the level of humanness, we see right and wrong as guide markers. At what point or level do we no longer see right and wrong?”

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How do you know right from wrong? It’s a question we often ask ourselves when pondering about our existence. I know the answer to this question. But the details might vary. Because there is no correct answer. Even though most of the time, we often overlook the queues by an innate drive of being right.

I have to say, most often than not, we are all wrong. If we dictate…


The Path To Thy Self

Prompt: Do you shine more like the Sun or the Moon? Or something else?

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When I was young, I was afraid of the dark. I mean, not in a general way but in a way that I would get goosebumps as soon as the lights were turned off.

And boy, I wanted to run like hell as my life depended on it. Ah, those were the good ol days. I really miss them, but then again, I am already there.

But yes, I was always fascinated with the night sky as a kid, the one with a full moon. I…


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Boys do cry, when no one’s looking
away from prying eyes, when the devil’s busy cooking

When everyone is at play, the evening is about to set,
a boy hides away, in his drawing room’s corner I bet

When the dusk follows slowly, as the sunset light shone
the rays that follow through the windowpane of the room

He sits quietly, weeping, whimpering in the dark
no one to hush him there, no one to reject his heart

No wonder it came to this, as he ran his tears away
His nose oozing with sadness, as he tries to work his…


You can do it

Prompt: “If you knew you’d be saved in the end, would you still fight?”

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Nobody is coming to save you.

Even if you pray to God for days and nights. You can only be saved unless you stand up by freeing yourself first. Saying this takes a lot of courage as I live by this code. And honestly, during my early teenage years, is where I lead a life of hardship filled with despair.

Despair, despair, despair
everywhere I looked I found despair
no wonder I tripped venturing the unknown,
trusting the wind, as she led me to the shore
I’m the only one…


Managing the B.S

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Honestly, I am sick and tired of people I know making fun of how I experienced Dystonia after a severe reaction from my Dysthymia medications(Risperidone).

It all started around February of 2021. I was taking my medication after following the doctor’s prescription. I wanted to take a rest as it’s the appropriate recommendation by my doctor. So I checked around the house and my schedule. And followed to go to sleep on a casual Sunday.

With no one to bug me during my sleep. I continued to take a long nap. But to no avail, as it was disturbed by…


Prompt: Trigger Warning!

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I used to run a peer group when I was back in high school. In my later years, we spent our afternoons together playing video games and talking about our life experiences.

It was perhaps a company of fools like most people who wanted to belong in this place we all call life. And so, we did find one another through our shared spirit for enjoying video games.

I still remember the day our friend and comrade Om stood up to share his life experiences. …


Prompt: Chaos is fertile soil for creativity

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Like an essay, you had to write, but it’s morning, and only 4 hours are left before you submit it to your teacher. Or perhaps you’re a night owl with ADHD, busy chasing squirrels in the dark of the night.

Yeah, all of us have been there, haven’t we? Albeit, most of us occasionally do it out of habit. Nowadays, it’s just so easy to get distracted. You don’t even need ADHD to be distracted because we live in a digital age. And no matter how much we try. …


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I often read a lot of writing advice. Write more, write less. Focus on your story, polish your grammar, and even proofread; for the reader.

All great points, in fact, but there is one thing they forget to mention.
Not all writers/readers think alike. It’s like writing a story, blindfolded thinking, the dart will land on the board.

Just because a guru said so.

And here, I often see writers milking the same story 100 different times, writing thousands of words every day just to get the ball rolling. …

Riku Arikiri

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